Scribbles of a Madman

I have two old lab notebooks that I've cannibalized to write my notes in. I have pages and pages of this mad writing. Mostly number crunching and trying to remember what the formulas are, these notebooks are like a chronicle of my descent back into an undergraduate hell. The practice test I've taken lately have been more like what I've been fearing. It's like a standardized test for Physics 1&2, Chemistry 1&2, Organic Chemistry 1&2, Biology 1&2, and a Verbal section all rolled into one. There are only so many formulas, rules, and facts that one can memorize much less recall and apply appropriately at a time.

My mind has started to become numb and desensitized to the new formulas I've been trying to cram in. Yes, I once knew how to calculate the force on a particle between a capacitor but that knowledge has atrophied during my time as a security analyst/code monkey(also from drinking). I didn't care about the mechanisms that drove a chemical reaction, I only cared about the mechanisms that caused a buffer overflow. While re-learning all these facts do come easier the second time through, it is still a time consuming process. I didn't realize how much I had covered as an undergrad.

Time -5 days til the MCAT. I'm tired, I'm burnt out, I'm starting not to care. I just want to get this over with.